Reaching for our goal is hard, If it's easy, everybody would do it. but it's not.
It takes patience, it takes commitment, and comes with plenty of failure along the way. The real test is not whether you avoid this failure, because you won't. it's whether you learn from it, whether you choose to persevere.
Common test was a huge disappointment. It hit me so hard that i really felt so discouraged. I was so discouraged that I even had the thought of dropping out of JC right at that moment. I felt that with my low ability, i won't be able to make a great jump within 8 months.
After thinking through, I realised that although i failed Chemistry, I actually understood those subjects that i was really weak in and i scored for those questions. I really did. Even if it is a question of two, it gave me a sense of accomplishment because I was never good at Chemistry. I told myself , " Maybe if I put in more effort or correct my studying methods, I can do well for other topics I am weak at now. " That sort of regained part of my confidence.
However, Math results came in at such a wrong time and i was back to square one. I felt really hopeless, so hopeless that i think im such a failure. Math used to be my best subject, my favourite subject and i had nothing to worry about. I think i was so complacent that my results dropped so tremendously that i had the greatest shock ever. Perhaps more practice might help.
I'm not carrying any more hopes for the rest of the subjects.
Mid-years are just 2 months away. Its not very far from now but i guess i have to start my revision really soon because i really don't want to see such results again. I really don't.
& Rumours about one getting retained if they don't do well for common test. I hope its not true.
k I'm going to finish all my work today and going out with relatives later to have fun for a day.
Sat and Sunday, i've got loads of work planned for myself.
Shall limit myself to computer usage alr. Perhaps maximum 1.5 hrs a day. ): bye.
